Tuesday, September 30, 2008
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i wanna hold your hand at 7:00 PM0 audiences watched us take the first step
and i'm just fu*king pathetic, not knowing the reason behind the songs that she sang. foolishly praying that she will turn around and embrace me in her arms without hesitation. always alone, in a crowded room, hoping that i'll catch her attention which i'm failing so badly at. and yes i'm a real lousy thief, failing and screwing up every single plan that i have. nothing i do seem to be right. sometimes i cant look you in the eye, cause your eyes tells me how lonely you are and how much you miss him. i just wish that time would stop for us. to stop at the time when we're happy together. i go into a series of trance every now and then, thinking why do you choose to go back to him even after what he've done to you. but guess i can only carry my badly smashed up heart with me and mending them in a world of my own, for you have chosen the path that is to go back to him, and not walking in the direction towards me. the only thing i can do now is to watch stupidly as you walk away from me.
* i love you because i needed you. *
* i love you because i needed you. *